After a long time I need u so again i m back to u when I m alone i only want u nothing else coz this is the place where i m hiding my self from everyone n is describing my all feeling
I started to confined my self in a boundary so that i can not hurt anyone neither i would enter in anyone's life nor interupt in anyone's matter or i m not going to complain anyone or to tell anyone my secrets or how much i m hurt by the people around me :(
In the begniing I started hurting my self I was completly broken no one wants me or no one wants to knw the reason why I changed my self but this new change was also bothering them
I dun knw what they want from me
I m human not an angel why they are blaming n insulting n scolding me without any reason the only reason of mine is that I am silent girl I used to keep silent even i m not wrong
I dun knw where I lost
Where my identity exist ? Where Should I exist ???????????????????
No one know why I changed few people were having problem because of it n they did not want me to change thet know that I m not going to bear it .I m going to hurt my self . MY silence was interupting them so they want me back to life once again n when I decided to come back to my life which I used to spent ...................
They left me leaving the message thay for fews days" she will be unable to call or msg me or she will not going to rply me "
Is it worth if she want to leave me so why did she left me before she should left me on that day when i changed my self so i m not going to come back to my life this hurt me more than that she is the one I used to talk actually i have a habit to talk with her n it's only my fault that i need her she did not want me she has many in her life
But...............................................
When i came to positve side I think that I did not complain her n did not said anything to her if she hurt me so today why i m i decided i m not going to tell her a single word n will confined my self again so that this time no one can hurt n other view of mine was the reason of her message was there should be something in which she is busy these days that's why she did
I dun knw anything The fact is today I m agian alone in this world no noe is there to listen me
n this time i m not going to come back I m not going to listen anything :(
THank u my little word from now on word I need u to describe my self
N to share my thing with u
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
school life
school is a place where we spent our entire childhood is passed we have no sense of talking school life is the memorable life which no one can forget even though they reached to the last age of their life (old age ) school is a place where we get atticate n every little stuff is taught over there
I passed my 13 years in a one school n have so many memories of that school after passing 7 i changed the school n took admission in another school which was totally different 1st year of that school was like a hell for me but last two years were awsome I m not going to forget that school till the last breath of my life
those three years were memorable had a huge friend circle considered to be a good student in the eyes of teacher , had fun on each n every place of that school but now nothing is left only behgi palkien n purani yadien
every one is bzy no one get times to interconnect although some of us are still in contact but we dun knw about other we used to say that our friendship will be ever lasting n we will be with each other in rough times but no one is there when i need them they were busy with their new friend
It teaches that it is difficult to find a sincere friends friends are all around but very few of them are their it's difficult to find a precious stone between many of the people .
I wish that each n everyone should have precious stone in their life for ever n they will be thier ever lasting for their support
I passed my 13 years in a one school n have so many memories of that school after passing 7 i changed the school n took admission in another school which was totally different 1st year of that school was like a hell for me but last two years were awsome I m not going to forget that school till the last breath of my life
those three years were memorable had a huge friend circle considered to be a good student in the eyes of teacher , had fun on each n every place of that school but now nothing is left only behgi palkien n purani yadien
every one is bzy no one get times to interconnect although some of us are still in contact but we dun knw about other we used to say that our friendship will be ever lasting n we will be with each other in rough times but no one is there when i need them they were busy with their new friend
It teaches that it is difficult to find a sincere friends friends are all around but very few of them are their it's difficult to find a precious stone between many of the people .
I wish that each n everyone should have precious stone in their life for ever n they will be thier ever lasting for their support
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
biggest mistake I ever did
mstakes are the part of life n everyone can do many mistakes even though i did many but some mistakes leaves nothing but bad memories which always haunts in your mind
i did a mistakes which i m not going to forget anymore anyhow coz it leaves a bad impact on me when i was in matric i did friendship on net with a boy n with in few days we were like best buddies n talk to much with each other then he asked me for my cell num n guess what i gave it to him
how fool n stupid i was ? how bad girl i was ?
we used to talk hour n hour at night . we used to laugh n to solves each other problem our friendship was very strong he used to tell me everything n i did the same even we both have our friends 2 but still we were addicted to each other we used to talk till sehri n sometimes we used to talk after sehri .
It was fun talking with him . but then after one year we both had fight n we were not giving time to each other we were busy in our lives but still we were friends sometimes he used to say sch thing which i can not expect from him n even though i did same but what ever it is we were friends then circumstances changed he has so many problems in his life n then he does not want me coz he always think kai i m a little child who is not going to understand his proble even though he is younger than me he broke his friendship without giving me any reason i dun knw why n he does not have any reason he was afriend of my sister n t he was like my sister younger brother he used to tell everything to her n he had so many problem n no one is there so he got married at the age of 17 did u believe that now he is not in contact with me but he is in contact with my sister she is suffering n tolerating him coz f me
coz of the single mistake i did
I wish did not did this mistake n fron this I learnt a lesson
It's difficult to find a true friend in this materialistic world even though I m not considering my self as a sincere friend
but now i m sticked to some friends n this experience leave a very bad impact on me my behaviour was changed coz what ever I think n I feel I sid to him but then he always said one thing :yeh smjhte nahi hai
Now I did not tell anyone that he is doing wrong coz i m not perfect 2 n what ever i feel from people is in my heart coz no one can understand u except Allah n your parents n a sincere friends
i dun want to loose my friends so I stick to this sentence
" No Complain No Demands "
i did a mistakes which i m not going to forget anymore anyhow coz it leaves a bad impact on me when i was in matric i did friendship on net with a boy n with in few days we were like best buddies n talk to much with each other then he asked me for my cell num n guess what i gave it to him
how fool n stupid i was ? how bad girl i was ?
we used to talk hour n hour at night . we used to laugh n to solves each other problem our friendship was very strong he used to tell me everything n i did the same even we both have our friends 2 but still we were addicted to each other we used to talk till sehri n sometimes we used to talk after sehri .
It was fun talking with him . but then after one year we both had fight n we were not giving time to each other we were busy in our lives but still we were friends sometimes he used to say sch thing which i can not expect from him n even though i did same but what ever it is we were friends then circumstances changed he has so many problems in his life n then he does not want me coz he always think kai i m a little child who is not going to understand his proble even though he is younger than me he broke his friendship without giving me any reason i dun knw why n he does not have any reason he was afriend of my sister n t he was like my sister younger brother he used to tell everything to her n he had so many problem n no one is there so he got married at the age of 17 did u believe that now he is not in contact with me but he is in contact with my sister she is suffering n tolerating him coz f me
coz of the single mistake i did
I wish did not did this mistake n fron this I learnt a lesson
It's difficult to find a true friend in this materialistic world even though I m not considering my self as a sincere friend
but now i m sticked to some friends n this experience leave a very bad impact on me my behaviour was changed coz what ever I think n I feel I sid to him but then he always said one thing :yeh smjhte nahi hai
Now I did not tell anyone that he is doing wrong coz i m not perfect 2 n what ever i feel from people is in my heart coz no one can understand u except Allah n your parents n a sincere friends
i dun want to loose my friends so I stick to this sentence
" No Complain No Demands "
Saturday, September 18, 2010
the day I born
The day when i born is when my mother was smiling but i was crying I dun knw the feeling which she was having at that time but she was blessed by the daughter I dun knw I heared by some one that she did not except me coz he want a son so she refused to except me I dun know weather it is correct or not if it is so it was her wish but today she loves me and cares for meThis was the begning of my life . This stupid stuff will be there in my mind but some how I am trying to get rid of but still memories and words always there. :(
When I born there was some mishap with me my head size increased day by day so my mother used to get worried people used to say that i wont be a normal girl some says that i might die or some says that she will look ugly or what so ever they all were stupid ediot people I knw :(
the fact is I am perfectly fine living my life and now there opnion are changed for me they used to say that I m pretty n i m smart I have only one problem today why they are saying they were the one who didnot want to except me but now they are why is that so ???
my mother always believes in only one God that my daughter will be fine n she will be there n see I passed my 17 years
I am alive i want to thank only one Allah he is the one and my family. Today what ever I m is coz of my parents I only have one question with everyone : why u people do comment on other and why ur opnion get change day by day stick to one thing or dun say anything.
there is a saying
" dun comment wrong this or dun speak rubbish it will make ur life difficult and miserable "
Friday, September 17, 2010
lost in this world
this blog is for me and only for myself ,where I can share my personal feeling.Me and my inner existance is totally different.A girl who used to live in her own fantasy world now She understands the real meaning of life and is in search of something to make her life completly perfect in her own way
Well what to say about me .I am a girl who waste 17 years of life in doing nothing but now she want something for her soul and for her beautiful existance in this world
A girl who is lost somewhere and is in search of her real culprit and is removing her imposter image to have her perfect charming image
Well what to say about me .I am a girl who waste 17 years of life in doing nothing but now she want something for her soul and for her beautiful existance in this world
A girl who is lost somewhere and is in search of her real culprit and is removing her imposter image to have her perfect charming image
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